I am just an open book for everyone to take a look. Do my insecurities alarm you?

Well I had my first ever riding lesson earlier...yah I rode once when I was like eight but that doesn't count. Anyway, it was fun and I smell like horse and yah...might go again next weekend.
So...yeah I should really be doing hwk right now but I totally can't be arsed. I got hooked on this crappy little game this week where ya have to be a waitress and get people food and clear the tables and stuff and it's like yaysome! If you're as sad as me.

Uh...hmm...ooo ya know James did that whole Sometimes in a happy way? Well I'm gonna warp it and twist it and make it bad.

Sometimes you feel like you're the only person in the entire world, and that scares the shit out of you more than any horror film. Sometimes you have the same nightmare three times over in a night. Sometimes you forget tiny details and the fact that you forgot bugs you all day. Sometimes you have so much homework to do and absolutely no motivation. Sometimes you break promises you've made to people who cared about you (they don't care anymore though) and to yourself (you don't care about yourself either; you fucking hate you). Sometimes you just don't feel anything...and that scares you too. Sometimes you feel like there's nothing worth living for, but no reason to die either, so you're just doomed to eternal nothingness.

Oh...and on the plus side? Sometimes you can sit in the car next to your father, giving him evils and turning Placebo up loudly and singing along with it as loud as you can...all just to annoy him.